How Long Will You Forget Me?

Last night was my very first night being able to go out with the Light in Darkness team. It definitely wasn’t easy. I can tell you Satan knows how to use fear and intimidation to mess with me. But as we prayed, the fear and nervousness were replaced with a peace that only God can give.

We were trying to decide which club to go to. Gia let Tamara and I decide. After we decided, I listened to Gia describe the club. She said that typically when they went into this particular club in the past, the dancers didn’t approach them or talk to them much. She also said that there seemed to be a lot of people in the parking lot, but few people on the inside. This particular night was a bit different from that. First I should tell you all that Hollywood strip clubs are way different from real ones (I had the Hollywood version in my head). The room was pretty dark, but there were various kinds of “club lights” (I guess you could call it). Most of the lights came from black lights(I was glowing, so were Tamara’s teeth). I started to analyze and think through everything that was happening around me. I was also trying to place who people were. I saw one or two bartenders, a server, and several dancers walking around the room. There was typically a dancer on the stage, either being watched, or giving someone a personal dance. There were also several men that were casually sitting around and/or interacting with the dancers. The hard part, for me, was to see some of the dancers walking around so nonchalantly. I think I was surprised by the fact that this lifestyle was normal to them. They weren’t bothered by having conversations with men topless or having men touch them inappropriately. At the same time, I felt a huge burden and very brokenhearted for them. I began to think about what each of their stories could be. I wondered if they knew they were beautiful and worth so much more than this. Tamara and I were praying for each dancer. We were praying for their safety from the things or people in their life they may be dealing with. We also prayed that if the opportunity was given to us, we would know the words to say to love on them and meet them exactly where they were. We were never able to talk with any of the dancers, but we sure did pray for them.

At one point during the night I felt extremely overcome with fear and discomfort. There was a “private dance room”, however, “private” isn’t so private. It happens to be a room without a door…with some weird, cheap and colorful lighting in it. I looked over at the wrong moment, and I wish I hadn’t. I actually was pretty frightened by what I saw. It was the silhouette of a dancer and of a man. There were a lot of sexual acts happening that I scared me the moment I saw them. I had felt the presence of bad things the whole time, but this moment was more-so than ever. I asked Tamara if she saw the same thing. She said yes, and we began praying. We were texting our awesome prayer team in the car. God was speaking to me through the scripture. “For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline.” 2 Timothy 1:7. Lots of people were praying, Tamara and I were looking up scripture, and I was starting to feel better about it. I could definitely feel God moving.

I am so excited to be a part of this ministry. I know God will use us to do big things in a very dark place. I am looking forward and curious what exactly God has in mind. I can’t wait until I can be there again, and hopefully be able to talk to some of the beautiful ladies that work there. 

-Megan



A note from Gia, one of Megan's prayer partners from the parking lot:

When Megan text about the fear she was experiencing from the extreme sexual activity happening so close to her, I opened the YouVersion app on my phone and asked God to direct me to the best words of comfort and encouragement. I opened to Psalms chapter 13:

O Lord, how long will you forget me? Forever?
    
How long will you look the other way?

2 How long must I struggle with anguish in my soul,
    
\with sorrow in my heart every day?
    
How long will my enemy have the upper hand?
3 Turn and answer me, O Lord my God!
    
Restore the sparkle to my eyes, or I will die.

4 Don’t let my enemies gloat, saying, “We have defeated him!”
    
Don’t let them rejoice at my downfall.
5 But I trust in your unfailing love.
    
I will rejoice because you have rescued me.

6 I will sing to the Lord
    
because he is good to me.

I immediately text this to everyone I could think of that was on our team and/or praying for us from home. Nearly every single person I text, replied with their focus on verse 5: “But I will trust in your unfailing love. I will rejoice because you have rescued me.”

I believe every single woman in that club has asked or wondered if God has forgotten her. I truly do. But Light in Darkness Ministries is a way to provide an answer to them. No, He has not forgotten you. No, He has not forsaken you. He has a plan and a purpose for your life. He wants to rescue you...

We’re there to provide a way, a reminder, and to reveal His love for them TO them.

~Gia